Is it normal to miss my depression? Twitter Thursday! #KatiFAQ | Kati Morton


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1. My question is… Can you feel nostalgic for times when you were very depressed? I feel myself “missing” my depression.2. What is your opinion on Pro Mia and Pro Ana websites? And why?3. #KatiFAQ Hey kati! So I have had BPD for what seems like forever(really only a year) and I tried going to college but i just got kicked out yesterday for my frequent panic attacks and dissociation. I have the ability to appeal their decision(and I’m going to) but I’m not sure if I’m ever going to be fully ready, or get the full college experience I hoped for. I haven’t been getting better, but worse. I was thinking some sort of long term treatment would benefit me, but I can’t live at home because my dad is one of my biggest triggers. I also haven’t heard of any options other than DBT which I have done in the past but it wasn’t available in the small town my college is in. Are there any other options for treatment? Is it possible to get effective care while being a full time college student? Thank you!
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  1. Jonathan Kivelä says

    Fuuck i hope my depression comes back!!

  2. snazz. yee says

    I do miss my depression, I really want to go back to that dark place because it was kinda my happy place???

  3. yem says

    feeling this way makes me feel so weak sometimes

  4. jollyolcupoftea says

    Idk if i miss what i called depression at the time because it felt comfortable, or if i just miss feeling emotion

  5. Elise Code says

    This is so relevant to me. I miss my depression when I feel ok, I struggle to manage it during university and feel like I’m missing out on good experiences, and acceptance was a huge thing I worked on with my therapist this past year. She told me not to think about how I should be feeling, what I should be doing, etc. but to accept the reality and work on improving where I want to without self-criticism.

  6. 1237 says

    I definetely miss the worst time of my depression. I think it's partly because as I get better I feel more and more pressure in starting to study or work again and I'm afraid that I can't. In the depths of my depression I was able to tell myself that I'm not weak, it's just the illness….

  7. Liv Violet says

    I’m 13 and I’m a recovering self harmer and bulimic my family does not know anything about it only my depression I tried killing myself last Summer and I have had 2 mental break downs where I missed 70 days of school

  8. Brown Feet says

    I thought i was the only one bt yeah i always missed being depressed :/

  9. Charlie Rennie says

    I really needed this. Im so glad I searched your channel at this time. Thank you for being there for me. Xx

  10. Anna Sörz says

    I feel very comforted when I'm deeply depressed, which is most of the days.

  11. Brianna Dotzel says

    You mentioned schizophrenia, and I have a really important question.. I was feeling really empty and I heard a voice telling me very negative things in my head and i kinda had a panic attack.. Does this mean I'm crazy!?? I suffer with depression (I'm not sure which one) and I'm not sure if I'm going crazy or what's going on.. I hope u can help me out with this

  12. kylie b says

    This makes me feel so much better because I thought I was crazy for missing my depression. It felt like I was in a world of my own where I didn't care about anything and it was like a blanket over me shielding me and I know I was miserable in my depression but now that I'm truly happy I miss knowing myself so well and just being very Intouch with myself.

  13. Gaby Itzel Quirós says

    I think you also miss it because it's a part of you, it's kind of a part of your personality so you feel maybe feel a little lost without it

  14. Emm Kay says

    nostalgic for depression…what a wonderful problem to have.

  15. kazzy wray says

    Agree totally

  16. savvy may says

    I have this issue! I've relapsed multiple times but I keep missing the "dark" times of my life. I feel now that I'm actually getting better I feel more uncomfortable. I'm not used to feeling this good, so therefore I miss it. also part of me doesn't want to get better sometimes :/ maybe a lot of it has to do with my anxiety. I hate doing ANYTHING alone, basically growing up scares the hell out of me! but this topic was helpful! thanks kati as always very good video! 💕💕

  17. Victoria Ella says

    Lately to cope I've been abusing over the counter. It gives me a high. But I gradually need more pills. To save pills I add another element alcohol. So I can get the effects and save otc. I dont think im addicted. Its just when night falls and the nights when I get extremely suicidal if I dont abuse ot distract myself I dint know what I'll do.

  18. Tara A says

    I totally understand the person struggling at college. Uni is kicking my but I'm failing calc and I had to stop therapy it's impossible to do it all.

  19. Ariella D. says

    Hey Kati, I don't think you understand how much you actually help people. You are a truly amazing person <3 You have helped me through rough times and helped me understand myself better 🙂 #KatiAppreciation  

  20. Mary Harkin says

    I'm very fond of S.A.F.E. they're in Missouri, and I arranged to have them give a presentation on self-harm at a library where I used to work.

  21. SayAnything8 says

    I'm currently pretty stable and doing much better because of my anti depressant and therapy. Yet sometimes especially when I get sad I start missing being depressed, I even start missing the intense feelings about suicide which for me often gave me a sense of control. I often find myself trying to make myself really depressed yet it doesn't work. I get sad but I bounce back really easily.

  22. kathyannemay1991 says

    The journal topic is classic DBT / mindfulness !!! 😊😊😊😊💕 love it !!!!! 💕💕💕

  23. ihartevil says

    thx for this awesomely ha bisky Q and A i love these so much

  24. BlueGreen84 says

    wow.. i wish i had all the connections you mentioned in the beginning.. i didnt know there was a chat option for twitter.. perhaps i should be on it more. community comes up a lot in your videos and i yearn for that but must not know where it's at… lol i love your language. "now that guy was a FUCKFACE!" i can also count on you to make my minute a little better… yeah my therapist suggested the DBT workbook but it's like I just do it on my own… Doesn't quite cut it.. I'd love to go to SAFE but I don't really struggle with self harm… I wish you could do a video on how to get help and better without having money or good insurance.. yeah there are tons of programs out there but i can't afford them nor does my shit HMO of medicaid cover it. Plus I called them and they are useless… I live in a small town too.. There are literally no options.

    I had to talk to my advisor to get a leave of absence.. gosh i was in his office so often.. wait.. college is supposed to be fun?! missed out on that one.. i went but it was not fun. never been to a party either. I'm such a loser. 

  25. meaning says

    I don't like websites in general but I think those people sometimes need someone who have the same problems

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  27. fruitikay says

    I love your channel. Just when I'm feeling down, I get your vids in my sub box and feel back in the mode of recovery. 🙂

  28. Samantha H says

    I find that even if the questions don't necessarily fit where I'm at in my recovery (or life in general), I always get something out of your videos.

    Thanks for being so dedicated.

  29. sparklyunicorn says

    You're so awesome thank you! 🙂

  30. Laura says

    I'm really interested to know what your answer would be to the last question if it was high school instead of college. It was nearly impossible for me and I actually had a huge mental breakdown 

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